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Apocalypse Whenever (Deluxe Edition)

by Bad Suns

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1.
Life tried to break me, then life fell apart Love me or hate me, I’m still in your heart Life’s not been pretty, but I’m still not ready to die I’ve never felt so alive Alright I sailed the seas of apathy In search of someone far from me I used to call you after school I’m always crawling back to you Love is so hard to find and to lose Apocalypse Whenever I can’t live in fear forever, right? Life tried to make me somebody I’m not Can’t separate from me, I’m all I’ve got Life’s not been pretty, but I’m still not ready to die I’ve never felt so alive Alright I practice my apologies I blame everything on astrology I faced my fears, I chased my dreams My demons all caught up with me But I put up a good fight Alright Apocalypse Whenever I can’t live in fear forever, right? (Practiced apologies Blame it on astrology) Apocalypse Whenever I can’t live in fear forever, can I? Life tried to take me down, love broke my fall Made my mistakes, have I learned from them all? Life’s not been pretty, but I’m still not ready to die I’ve never felt so alive Alright Apocalypse Whenever I can’t live in fear forever, right? A moment of reflection Are we going the right direction? Are we doomed?
2.
I don’t know where to start I don’t want this to end I’ve been falling apart every now and again Never know what to say But you get it anyway Like you do It was warm in the night Looking cool in your car Nearly started a fight Playing pool in the bar Now you’re walking away With a smile on your face Like you do Same old situation Poisonous temptation Adjust my expectations For a little less sunshine Summer Lightning Fun and Frightening No one I’ve found Does letting me down Quite like you Down the rainswept streets We parade through the night All the secrets we keep under wraps come to light We’ll never go the distance down the path of least resistance It’s true At the end of the tunnel we could finally breathe At the end of the summer If you have to, then leave I’ll save up my money I’ll follow you, honey Like I do Adjust my expectations For a little less sunshine Summer Lightning Fun and Frightening No one I’ve found Does letting me down Quite like you Summer Lightning Fun and Frightening No one I’ve found Does letting me down Nah, no one I’ve found Does letting me down Quite like you Same old situation Poisonous Temptation Adjust my expectations For a little less sunshine Summer Lightning Come and strike me No one I’ve found Gets up off the ground Quite like you Summer Lightning Fun and Frightening No one I’ve found Does letting me down Nah, no one I’ve found Does letting me down Quite like you
3.
Hey, think about our better days Think about you, those baby blue shades That’s when you told me You hope that the old me might show up I overreact Hey, think about walking away Think about all of the ways I’ve changed That’s when you told me You hope that the old me might show up He’s not coming back Oh, I can see the moon from my kitchen But I cannot see through this decision I close my eyes and cross the line Now, I’m breaking out Yeah, you broke me down Now, I’m breaking out I’m breaking out Hey, breaking out to better days Buy myself a pair of baby blue shades Go on, forget me I wish that you’d let me You text me, I’m not writing back I miss how you hold me Each kiss feels so lonely But I know I’m on the right track Oh, I can see the moon from my kitchen But I cannot see through this decision I close my eyes and cross the line Now, I’m breaking out Yeah, you broke me down Oh, I can see my world in transition And I can see the light I’ve been missing I close my eyes and cross the line Now, I’m breaking out Yeah, you broke me down Now I’m breaking out I’m breaking out I’m breaking out I’m breaking out I miss how you hold me Each kiss feels so lonely But I know I’m on the right track That’s when you told me You hope that the old me might show up He’s not coming back He’s not coming back I’m not coming back I’m not coming back I’m not coming back Oh, I can see my world in transition And I can see the light I’ve been missing I close my eyes and cross the line Now, I’m breaking out Yeah, you broke me down Now I’m breaking out I’m breaking out I’m breaking out I’m breaking out Can’t break me down I’m breaking out Can’t break me down I’m breaking out
4.
Peachy 03:22
Sing me a song While the street lamps flicker on You’ve got my blue jean jacket on I sing along, I sing along Ride like the wind Feel the rush of blood within I feel invincible again You let me in, you let me in Off the ground Turn my life upside down, oh I’m on the ceiling Are you feeling like me? It’s hard to imagine Hard to believe Can this really happen? Are we just a dream? I feel like I’m weightless I’ve lost gravity It’s hard to imagine It’s hard to believe Fourth of July Your blue and bloodshot sparkling eyes Look towards the symphony of lights I’m feeling peachy, take a bite Over the moon Catch a car back to your room The smell of candles and perfume Alexa plays our favorite tune Off the ground Turn my life upside down, oh I’m on the ceiling Are you feeling like me? It’s hard to imagine Hard to believe Can this really happen? Are we just a dream? I feel like I’m weightless I’ve lost gravity It’s hard to imagine It’s hard to believe Don’t change Even on the worst days Funerals and birthdays Turbulence and Earthquakes Don’t wait Don’t change Even on the worst days Funerals and birthdays Turbulence and Earthquakes Don’t wait Off the ground Turn my life upside down I’m on the ceiling Are you feeling like me? It’s hard to imagine Hard to believe Can this really happen? Are we just a dream? I feel like I’m weightless I’ve lost gravity It’s hard to imagine It’s hard to believe
5.
Drive me crazy I’d go anywhere you take me 1980s summer soundtrack, lighting jays We were eighteen Nearly out of our minds When the world was mine When the world was mine I don’t care what we do Can I kick it with you? Like it hasn’t been forever I don’t care what we do Come and cut me in two Like I have nothing to hide We could rule the world We could lay in bed Say all of the words we left unsaid I don’t care what we do Are you feeling it too? Like it hasn’t been forever Acting shady LA heatwave Lying poolside You persuade me Nothing’s wrong And then you’re gone Left me to daydream You were cold as ice When the world was mine When the world was mine One more round Knock me down I’m weightless Hold on now Let’s slow down Let’s face it I never know when to leave it alone I never know when to go Still I miss those times When the world was mine I don’t care what we do Can I kick it with you? Like it hasn’t been forever I don’t care what we do Come and cut me in two Like I have nothing to hide We could rule the world We could lay in bed Say all of the words we left unsaid I don’t care what we do Are you feeling it too? Like it hasn’t been forever Say it out loud If you want me act now Come on Say it out loud If you want me act now Come on Say it out loud If you want me act now Come on Say it out loud Yeah I don’t care what we do Can I kick it with you? Like it hasn’t been forever I don’t care what we do Come and cut me in two Like I have nothing to hide We could rule the world We could lay in bed Say all of the words we left unsaid I don’t care what we do Are you feeling it too? Like it hasn’t been forever
6.
At sunrise I lay Buried under my pillow I breathe in and roll out of bed A heart’s built to break So you’ll weep like a willow Sometimes it’s all in your head Wishing fountains We pray for change in the dark Moving mountains We end up right where we start We end up right where we start We end up right where we start The world’s not falling apart But you and I Baby, we are Set fire to your dress Then I smash my reflection Why would you string me along? A drunken, bloody mess In a world of condescension It’s always fucking me in the wrong Wishing fountains We pray for change in the dark Moving mountains We end up right where we start We end up right where we start We end up right where we start The world’s not falling apart But you and I Baby, we are
7.
Ah, electric hideaway My pride and shame Ah, riding a tidal wave Of lies and blame Dream electric dreams Perfect on the surface Life is a but a stream Where everybody’s shirtless Tell me what you mean To be heard is to hurt less Nothing’s what it seems At this electric circus Ah, electric hideaway My pride and shame Ah, crushed by a tidal wave Of lies and blame Trash my self esteem When you’re feeling worthless Hunched over a screen To feel some sense of purpose I’m trying so hard to make it look easy Falling apart with a smile on my face Everyone loves everybody until they need some thing Then I pretend like I didn’t hear my cell phone ring Ah, electric hideaway My pride and shame Ah, riding a tidal wave Of lies and blame Ah, crushed by a tidal wave Of lies and blame There’s no one beneath me It’s so easy to leave me I loved you completely So deeply, so briefly Ah, electric hideaway My pride and shame Ah, crushed by a tidal wave Of lies and blame Nothing’s what it seems At this electric circus
8.
In a nightclub by the bay Where my old band used to play Every song I love is pain I’m waiting for you On the dance floor, by the stage It’s like a past life takes the reins Every time someone speaks your name I’m waiting for you Waiting for you to come back home I’m waiting for you to call my phone I lay on the roof, see you in the stars Evading the truth in cafes and bars Still waiting for you On a sidewalk, names engraved From a long lost yesterday On a park bench, drenched in rain I’m waiting for you I try to keep cool I feel like a fool I slip and slide, I take it all in stride I try to keep cool I try to keep cool I try to keep cool Keep it all inside Waiting for you to come back home I’m waiting for you to call my phone I lay on the roof, see you in the stars Evading the truth in cafes and bars Still waiting for you Every word of every line of every song Every song, every song I love is pain Waiting for you to come back home I’m waiting for you to call my phone I lay on the roof, see you in the stars Evading the truth in cafes and bars Still waiting for you
9.
Strolling the streets in this ghost of a town My future looking bleak My head filled with sound As I lost signal on the train underground My thoughts came flooding in I started to drown Then you caught me by surprise Changed my destination Kaleidoscopic eyes Forming constellations I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me Missing the nights when my friends were around We start going unsteady Cruel merry go round Lit my own fuse I could not blow it out I was strapped to a rocket Aimed right at the ground Then you caught me by surprise Changed my destination Kaleidoscopic eyes Forming constellations I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me No reason to breathe No light I could see No reason to breathe No light I could see No reason to breathe I had no light I could see I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me
10.
Take me anywhere besides here, baby Summer never lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you Night drive, no headlights The moonlight guides the way Your tan lines burned in my mind I’m chasing yesterday Memory tapes stuck on repeat Pictures of you, pictures of me I picture the world we never got to see Heaven is a place in my head Take me anywhere besides here, baby Summer never lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, don’t wake me I’m living in a goddamn daydream Nothing ever lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, I’m feeling like the sun never sets That summer was endless Sunrise tears in your eyes You had a plane to catch My world’s become a house of mirrors Reflecting every path where I wake up Find you in my bed Heaven is a place in my head Take me anywhere besides here, baby Summer never lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, don’t wake me I’m living in a goddamn daydream Nothing ever lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, I’m feeling like the sun never sets That summer was endless Memory tapes stuck on repeat Pictures of you, pictures of me I picture the world we never got to see Take me anywhere besides here, baby Summer never lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, don’t wake me I’m living in a goddamn daydream Nothing ever lasts as long as you want it to As long as I’m next to you, I’m feeling like the sun never sets Heaven is a place in my head That summer was endless (Lights so bright, so pretty In this invisible city) Heaven is place in my head
11.
Every fear I’ve ever known comes out to play Worthy of tears, her body moves like ocean waves I dive into temptation Drowning in elation I can’t live my life this way You terrorized me Love, we outgrew it She hypnotized me I fell into it I’ve told some pretty lies I’ve kept love in disguise No, I can’t live my life this way Silently screaming Lies on the phone Every reason to let go of every demon Clutching my bones But this unbearable feeling feels like home Silently screaming Silently screaming Silently screaming Lies on the phone But this unbearable feeling feels like home Drive through the town you slept around like it’s a race Try tuning out all of my doubts and my mistakes A streetlight intersection moment of reflection I can’t live my life this way Can’t live this way Silently screaming Lies on the phone Every reason to let go of every demon Clutching my bones But this unbearable feeling feels like home Silently screaming Silently screaming Silently screaming Lies on the phone But this unbearable feeling feels like home
12.
Grace, on the first night I saw your face On the outside of cyberspace I emerged from a haunted place I think I’m in love again You eclipse me Our lips meet Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love again Make my heart beat In the dark we fall apart I think I’m alone again You light my fire, I breathe you in You get me higher than I’ve ever been Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love Sleep, in a hotel room by the sea Where I held you inside a dream Down the long road you ride with me Ride with me You eclipse me Our lips meet Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love again Make my heart beat In the dark we fall apart I think I’m alone again You light my fire, I breathe you in You get me higher than I’ve ever been Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love Remember days of elation, nights so divine I tested your patience, you tested mine There’s no replacement You couldn’t change my mind Change my mind So happy I could cry Reflected diamonds in your eyes When I die, I want you right there by my side Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love again Make my heart beat In the dark we fall apart I think I’m alone again You light my fire, I breathe you in You get me higher than I’ve ever been Make my heart beat In the backseat of your car I think I’m in love
13.
When you’re in a bed of roses When your light turns blue Vision sliding out of focus Broken down and homeless I’ll be there for you When you feel every emotion When you want bad news When you run out of devotion Running in slow motion I’ll be there for you If I just had the answer The answer If I just had the answer The answer Tell me what to do I’ll be there for you When it’s going like we planned it When there’s nothing to lose When you’re taking me for granted Help me understand it I’ll be there for you If I just had the answer The answer If I just had the answer The answer Tell me what to do I’ll be there for you I’ll be there for you I’ll be there for you Look towards the sky A symphony of lights We are alive I can see it in your eyes Look towards the sky We can make it if we try If I just had the answer The answer If I just had the answer The answer When you’re in a bed of roses When your light turns blue I’ll be there for you I’ll be there for you When you’re taking me for granted Help me understand it I’ll be there for you
14.
Moving in a backwards motion Tripping down the streets we’d roam Fired at me, left me frozen I’m numb to the cold Crashing into your conclusion Spun me like a spider’s web Snapping out of my delusion Back into my head You watched me crash You watched me burn You helped me pick my pieces up I let you down and in return You let me know you’ve had enough Holding on was holding me down Holding on, who’s holding you now? Maybe you hate me or maybe I’m crazy Or maybe you saved me By letting me go Maybe you saved me By letting me go Falling in a forwards motion Driving down the old dirt road Shaded by the burnt out trees From fire flowers grow I want to call you up to say I want to hear you’ve found your way I’m hoping when the seasons change We’re both in better days I watched you crash I watched you burn I helped you pick the pieces up I couldn’t give you what you deserve Sometimes my best ain’t good enough (I know you’ve had enough) Holding on was holding me down Holding on, who’s holding you now? Maybe you hate me or maybe I’m crazy Or maybe you saved me By letting me go Maybe you saved me By letting me go I let you down and in return You let me know you’ve had enough Holding on was holding me down Holding on, who’s holding you now? Maybe you hate me or maybe I’m crazy Or maybe you saved me By letting me go Maybe you saved me By letting me go Maybe you hate me or maybe I’m crazy Or maybe you saved me By letting me go Maybe you saved me By letting me go Crash landing back down to earth Falling in love in reverse Crash landing back down to earth Falling in love in reverse Crash landing back down to earth Falling in love in reverse Crash landing back down to earth Falling in love in reverse Maybe you saved me By letting me go
15.
Life Jacket 02:55
I was off on my own island You were drifting, lost at sea When I saw the summer lightning It felt like home to me And I thought my eyes were lying When you washed up on the beach Now that you’re safe beside me I hope you never leave All the little broken parts Of our broken hearts Make us who we are Everybody’s looking for a silver lining It’s hard to recognize a blessing in disguise Everybody’s looking for some peace inside them It’s hard to recognize It’s hard to breathe sometimes When the waves come crashing The waves come crashing I can be, I can be your life jacket When trouble came to find us You went running for the hills Tried to leave your pain behind us You know you never will All the little broken parts Of our broken hearts Make us who we are Everybody’s looking for a silver lining It’s hard to recognize a blessing in disguise Everybody’s looking for some peace inside them It’s hard to recognize It’s hard to breathe sometimes When the waves come crashing The waves come crashing I can be, I can be your life jacket When the waves come crashing The waves come crashing I can be, I can be your life jacket All the little broken parts Of our broken hearts Make us who we are Everybody’s looking for a silver lining It’s hard to recognize a blessing in disguise Everybody’s looking for some peace inside them It’s hard to recognize It’s hard to breathe sometimes When the waves come crashing The waves come crashing I can be, I can be your life jacket When the waves come crashing The waves come crashing I can be, I can be your life jacket
16.
Strolling the streets in this ghost of a town My future looking bleak My head filled with sound As I lost signal on the train underground My thoughts came flooding in I started to drown Then you caught me by surprise Changed my destination Kaleidoscopic eyes Forming constellations I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me Missing the nights when my friends were around We start going unsteady Cruel merry go round Lit my own fuse I could not blow it out I was strapped to a rocket Aimed right at the ground Then you caught me by surprise Changed my destination Kaleidoscopic eyes Forming constellations I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me No reason to breathe No light I could see No reason to breathe No light I could see No reason to breathe I had no light I could see I had no reason to breathe Until you knocked the wind out of me I had no light I could see Until your radiance blinded me I was spinning around and around In an ocean of grief Your ladder came down to the sea I hope the pain never ends Love is so bittersweet Life was easier when I only cared about me

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released September 30, 2022

Bad Suns are Christo Bowman, Gavin Bennett, Miles Morris, and Ray Libby

Christo Bowman - Vocals, Guitar, Keys, Synths, Vibraphone
Gavin Bennett - Bass, Keys, Synths, Backing Vocals
Miles Morris - Drums, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Ray Libby - Guitar, Keys, Backing Vocals, Shakers, Bass on “Electric Circus”

Produced by Eric Palmquist
Mixed by Mike Crossey
Mastered by Chris Gehringer
Assistant Engineered by Steven Aguilar, Cameron Rochte, and Jake Munk

Songs by Christo Bowman
Music by Christo Bowman, Gavin Bennett, Miles Morris, and Ray Libby

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